Poems

      Words of pain
      I'm overwhelmed by one thing,
      a thing you don't wish to anybody.
      This thing is called pain,
      and it's caused by a few words.
      I'm angry and destroyed from the inside,
      caused because of a fucking comment.
      I feel devastated,
      all I can think of is pain and hate.
      Does this ends good,
      or will it all be over.
      This depends on something,
      a hell of a good excuse.
      Just remind this,
      don't fuck with me.
      Written by Black Coffin

      A fool
      I'm sitting all alone in my room and once again I'm thinking of my life
      My past is passing me by
      See a lot of pain, a lot of tears
      That's how I remember it
      There were a lot of days that I could only cry
      My hope was faded away
      I wanted to say goodbye to everything
      Now I'm laughing and feeling fine
      Sometimes I still cry, inside and outside
      But that's different then in the past
      I wanted to say goodbye to everything
      Damn, what was I a fool
      Cause if I really said goodbye I had never felt this lovely feeling deep
      inside
      It's a great feeling, called love
      And I'm so thankful for finding my love
      It's making me stronger day after day
      There was a time that I wanted to say goodbye,
      Now I want to live!
      Written by Lovelygirl

      People
      People survive wars. People survive disasters. People survive pain. People
      survive sadness. People survive hurt. People survive people. So why
      wouldn't I, one of the people, survive this?
      Written by Me

      Infinite Sadness
      a ray of light
      of the golden red sun
      breaks the cold and bitter night
      I repeat
      the unspoken words
      that were not meant to be
      drowning myself
      in infinite sadness
      and melancholy
      the words,
      written on a line
      that you will be mine
      and intense will be Love
      that rises above
      as a ray of light
      breaks the bitter night
      Written by Rogue

      Unanswered love
      Loneliness is tearing me apart.
      How can I find a way to your heart?
      I want your body close to mine.
      Now, tomorrow and 'till the end of time.
      Let me surround you with all my love.
      It's all I have been thinking of.
      I want you in my life.
      But if I lose you, it will cut me like a knife.
      I don't want to play a role.
      I just want to give you my soul.
      Written by Cowboyke

      My love
      I saw you walking in the street
      I talked to you because you are so cute
      I needed you , you are so special
      I loved you because I thought you loved me!!
      Now I hate you , because I saw you walking in the street with an another
      girl!!
      Written by Chihuahua

      Have no fear, I'm near
      When you feel all alone inside your heart,
      don't be scared to fall apart.
      Think of precious times when you have no fear,
      in these moments I'll be always near.
      Even though not physically,
      sure I'll be there for you mentally.
      Like a guardian angel following you,
      I wanna protect you in anything you do.
      As time flies by I'll always be around,
      even when you're nowhere to be found.
      Deep in your soul there's no dying light,
      but a strong being prepared to fight.
      Think of me when you feel so blue,
      'cause then I'd run to you.
      Wanting to hug you and give you all of me,
      that's what I'm gonna do if that's supposed to be.
      No need to say 'I love you' anymore,
      that's something you already know from before.
      Only when we die there'll be our goodbye,
      and if you know me, you know that ain't no lie.
      So just don't be scared and put a smile on your face,
      'cause together we'll make the world a better place.
      Written by Cowboyke

      Losing you
      Sitting here alone thinking it through,
      Trying to convince myself that I'm not losing you,
      Why can't you just forget the things I've said?
      I was angry at the time but now I've cleared my head!
      It was so strong! Where did it all go wrong?

      So tell me why! I'm swimmin' against the tide,
      And I'm praying for a life-line, 'cause I'm, losing you,
      So tell me why! You don't care enough to try,
      Are you giving up this fight?, I can't stand, won't stand, losing you.

      You don't have to say a word, It's in your eyes,
      What can I do to convince you, we need more time?
      And I know I may have made a few mistakes,
      But losing you is just too much for me to take.
      It was so strong, where did it all go wrong?

      Tell me why, I won't stand losing you,
      I'm praying for a life-line, 'cause I'm losing you,
      Won't stand losing you!
      You don't care enough to try, won't stand losing you,
      What can I do? won't stand losing you!
      (oorspronkelijke songtekst van een niet nader bekende band)
      Sent by Myrna

      Teardrops
      It doesn't matter how hard I try, to keep you inside
      Every single time you arrive, it's again because of the lies
      When I'm in pain, I don't want to cry, and when I start that fight
      You versus I, I realize I'm floating, so I've got to blink my eye
      Its okay to loose, Its oke to let it out, no reasons left to deny
      How dispirit the situation is, there will come a time that you'll get by
      Once the first drop slides against your nose just remember, its all right
      I feel them growing in my eyes now, but I know there'll come dry nights
      Written by Carmela

      Wanted to ask
      I wanted to ask you something
      Something you didn't expect
      but now I see
      You asked the exact same thing
      the exact same thing
      You have ask to some one else
      Written by Yael

      Hate
      Take me away,
      I don't want to see another day
      Take me into the screaming silence of Hell.
      Give me rest, let me heal
      Don't want to be a part of this spinning wheel.
      Go away and never come back.
      You killed me with your broken promise
      You slowly broke my neck
      Written by Nathalie Rozenveld

      Lonely soul
      He has never seen the sun for real,
      just a reflection of its beauty.
      Just a wink of an eye,
      but never the love he is needing so hard.
      The pain, the anger,
      they all fill space in his mind,
      but empty the heart, bit by bit.
      Every day he hopes and prays,
      every day the gaps get bigger,
      every day more lonely,
      every day more hidden,
      every day a piece of him died,
      until his heart was empty and his head fully loaded,
      that was the day he couldn't die no more...
      and yet... he keeps on livin'
      Written by I.M.

      Fool
      Things will never be the same
      I'm lost in your eyes, and caught by your name...
      My memories are black, as a cold and lonesome night
      And my soul is lost in a never-ending fight
      There's a chill in my bones, it's keeping me close...
      close to your dreams as mad as it seems

      Ben ik te jong om deze pijn te voelen, is hij te oud om mijn liefde te
      koelen
      Ooit zal ik lachen om de wereld om mij heen, maar op dit moment sta ik
      radeloos alleen

      Make up something really clever, show me ten ways to hate your name
      forever...
      Cause I'm acting like a complete fool, always having my heart set on
you...
      Please change these horrible rules...
      or otherwise I'll keep chaising the soles of you shoes..

      Ooit raak ik dit gevoel kwijt,
      Written by Judith

      Listen
      Boy please listen to the things I gotta say...
      you know I love you in every way
      you know I wanna be with you so bad,
      but why is it that when I'm with you I'm always sad?
      I know I'm supposed to be strong
      ..but...
      how can I...
      if you say that everything I do is wrong?
      why don't you trust me?...
      why can't you see
      boy, without you I can't be
      ..but...
      baby if it's gonna be like this
      I can't go on
      so if you keep treating me this way
      I'm gone...
      I just wanna say with this words
      the way you treat me HURTS...!!!
      Written by Dutske

      Painful Goodbye
      Hush now, don't say a word
      Unspoken thoughts, I've already heard
      Time has passed and the distance is great
      We can't recover tracks it's too late
      Our love will forever be bonded in time
      In a beautiful child, both yours and mine
      Who could of known just how it would end
      I still love you and will miss you my friend
      This pain is great and hard to hide...
      Yet through all the memories, I'll say Goodbye.
      Written by Audrey

      Remembrance
      I ponder my thoughts, here as I sit
      Basking in the sun, here on the deck
      My thoughts drift in and out like the tides
      Playing out memories throughout my life
      Like a movie, I see them so clear
      Despite the dust added over the years
      I have felt sunshine, I have felt rain
      Conquered storms, yet the scars remain
      I have lost Loved ones along the way
      Though, I carry them in my heart everyday
      Wounds were healed by a lover's touch
      Wonderful man in my life, how I love him so much
      Precious moments remembered carrying my son
      A new part of life has just begun
      What the future holds, I do not know
      I embrace this life wherever it goes
      Written by Audrey

      Why
      Sittin' crying a river
      Sleepless night feelin' sick
      Because I can' stop thinking how he mistreated me
      I don't believe you left us like this
      One fight none risks
      Just leaving
      I'm tired of my heart
      Being broken
      I'm tired of these tears
      Falling down my face
      I'm tired of this love
      Being taken
      For granted
      why did you go away?
      There's one thing I must ask of you
      one thing
      I gotta ask of you
      why you took your love away?
      I'm tired of my heart
      Being broken
      I'm tired of these tears
      Falling down my face
      I'm tired of this love
      Being taken
      For granted
      why did you go away?
      Written by Sjanna

      Miss you
      miss you like a flower in the morning
      miss you like the rising sun
      miss you like the beautiful moon
      miss you like the bright stars up in the sky
      miss you like a beautiful bird high up in the sky
      miss you much
      miss you as if you were my own child close to my hart...
      miss you my darling sweetheart
      Written by Usha Schuit

      A poem to you
      I wish I wouldn`t have this pain,
      I say those words in the rain,
      Those last words that you told me then,
      Those last words before I run,
      You shouldn`t have said that you were gonna leave my side,
      Cause when I went out to play, I`d never expected to hide,
      She, with her beauty, she could have who she wanted,
      My house has become, instead of what it was with you, hunted.
      I am afraid to come out cause voices keep telling me to stay and wait for
      you,
      The spirit that I had, has become a shadow of fear what I am to do,
      A poem to you is all I offer,
      A dream is what I give,
      It will never be real,
      But without this I can not live...
      Written by Charley

      Past
      Such a long time ago we where together
      I moved on and let you go
      All that happened suddenly didn't matter
      Though at that time I loved you so

      Since I'm back things have changed a lot
      You got a new life and found new love
      I'm no longer all you got
      And I'm happy for you, though it's tough

      Sometimes I think what if then.
      But I already know it's no use
      I do still miss the times when.
      But I don't want to think about the past, I refuse

      I was so sure of myself I left it all behind
      I was so sure I let go
      So what are you still doing in my mind?
      Sometimes I don't know anymore

      How come I wonder if you still love me?
      I should be over you
      How come I'm jealous of your lady?
      Why do I hope you think of me too?

      It's been a year ago since I went away
      Maybe I just miss the past
      There is still so much to say
      But it's too late and time went too fast

      And I have to accept the fact that it's not the same anymore
      But I have trouble thinking like that
      And I have to accept that it's not like before
      But the past is so hard to forget

      Weird thing is I don't want you back, too much pain in the past
      Though I miss you, I miss us forever
      Weird thing is I can't love u anymore I gave you all my best
      But you won't go from my heart, never
      Written by Unknown

      Memories
      Remember everything like it was yesterday
      I know that we had a really great time
      although its all over, I'm glad that I can say
      I had the chance to know you well,
      I have to write this rime
      to remind myself, sometimes
      how it used to be,
      how great it was
      together, you and me.
      Written by Dickie

      Girl in the mirror
      I see a girl in the mirror she is crying and think who she really is
      But then she sees her past and think how it could be like this
      Now she wants to make her life different then her past
      Her past is what she wants to forget, real fast
      She thinks that she is hurting other people because she run from home
      Now she is al alone and wants to tell everybody how she feel
      But she cant because she sees a girl , a girl she never want to be
      There is a way to change your future girl, you have to accept that your
      past is gone
      You're future is important and don't forget you're not alone
      Your friends wants to help you because they care about you
      And all the things they have said you know its true
      This girl I tell about, the troubles she had, this girl is me
      I pray for a happy ending and I know I'm gonna make it on my own
      Without somebody to tell me that I'm doing everything wrong like home
      I see a girl in the mirror she is happy and now that she have friends
      where she can count on
      Now her life will be different from now on.
      So ill take a smile on my face and see that the world is a better place.
      Written by Nones

      What is it like ?
      People tell me to laugh
      Don't look sad
      And not to cry
      But I don't know what it's like
      To be so happy, oh so happy

      I really do like to cry
      I keep falling down
      I want to die
      But people keep telling me NO
      You cant go, we won't let you
      They won't let me

      People tell me to laugh
      Don't look sad
      And not to cry
      But they don't know what it's like
      To be just like me, so unhappy
      Written by Mayheart

      My dry tears
      Tears again
      Tears full of pain
      I've lost my way
      Thoughts running trough my head
      My head keeps on spinning
      My body walks but I'm not there
      With the tears I have shown
      I could feed a flower
      But with my uncried tears
      I could fill another sea
      My dry tears
      Written by Fee

      I wanna be loved
      Has the outside world
      Gone crazy
      Or is it really me?

      I know what its like to try to fit in
      And it doesn't matter how hard you try
      I also know how it feels
      When you fail

      I know what its like to wonder in your head
      Questions about life and death
      To hurt the outside not to feel
      The pain on the inside
      And sometimes I just run and hide

People are liars when they say
It will be all right

      I wonder, who thinks the way I do?
      Experience the world the way I do?
      They don't feel emptiness
      When nothing's really missing
      They don't cry without knowing why
      And they don't think about death
      And how many people would care
      If I died

      I just wanna be loved
      By someone always there
      Someone who understands
      I just wanna be loved
      Written by Maite_Kelly

      Too lost in you
      I don't know where to begin.
      My life is so complicated.
      It feels like I'm drowning...
      Drowning in my own tears

      All because my love
      for you is just a
      waste of time...
      It's useless.

      It's easy to love you
      but impossible to forget you.
      Every thought of you
      brightens up my day

      I thought it was easy
      to win your heart.
      But it remains a dream.

      Every day I get up
      I start a fight against
      my love for you.
      But I'm too weak to win...

      I'm lost, lost in my own feelings.
      I don't know where to go.
      But trust me, I will find my way.
      With or without you...
      Sent by Lotje

      Question
      Pain is the greatest, yet worst, thing that scar's my life.
      All those suffer and hate.I can't stand it anymore...
      Miseries.people dying.people get hurt.
      Is this what God mend with life?
      And still.there is one question spinning in my head.
      Why?
      Why me?
      Why can't I be happy?
      It seems that this question will drown in my river of pain,
      deep inside my head.
      A question that will never be answered.
      Written by Tears_out_of_heaven

      Broken heart
      Quit playing games with my heart,
      because slowly i'm falling apart.
      Just be honest and say you don't love me,
      i'm feeling so much pain, can't you see.
      I love you so very much,
      and I miss your kiss, your touch.
      Can't you see I miss al of you,
      but I have to see that we're through.
      It's hard for me to believe,
      but there is nog more love left to receive.
      I hope some day i'll be okay,
      for now I think it's better this way.
      Written by Sweet Scorpio

      Gone
      You were always there for me,
      You held the key,
      To my heart,
      But somebody turned the card,
      You somehow got lost in your tracks,
      And you forgot the facts,
      You were somehow not there anymore,
      You walked out the door,
      I couldn't see you and I felt so alone,
      From that day on you were gone,
      And I swear I don't know what went wrong,
      But I'm missing you from that day on,
      I cannot live without you,
      Don't know what to do,
      Everyday that passes by,
      I cry,
      Every tear that falls down here,
      Is a memory of you wishing you could hear,
      Me crying out for your love,
      'Cause there's just nothing above,
      I love you so much,
      And I know you love me still, 'cause,
      I feel you in my heart still,
      Only if you would come back I could find the will,
      To carry on again, I would be so glad,
      If I would see you again, without you everything feels so bad,
      My heart is bruised and broken,
      A kind of loneliness has stroke,
      And I can't breath without you,
      And I can't see without you,
      Every night you're on my mind,
      By candlelight I pray for the will to fight,
      Against the feeling of emptiness,
      But it somehow infatuates me and I return trying to stop the crying until
      dust,
      I can't take it anymore,
      I can't sleep anymore,
      I can't eat anymore,
      I can't sleep anymore,
      I can't dream anymore,
      I can't love anyone anymore,
      Only you, 'Caus you have a part of me,
      Can't you see,
      If you would come back to me,
      How happy I would be,
      I miss you, so much, I linger for you, Come back,
      Somehow you are gone,
      But I can still see you,
      But it's just a memory,
      Without you I only worry,
      Why are you gone?
      A part of me has left me alone,
      So long I've missed you,
      Why are you gone?
      Written by Charley

      My true life, my secrets, my feelings
      I tried to tell you
      You just wouldn't listen
      After all we've been through
      The end is now so near
      I guess it had to be this way
      But I don't fear
      Because where I'm going I will be happy
      And you will regret not talking to me
      But than it's too late ... sadly
      Some things happen
      Just because of words
      Those have been stabbing
      Down in my heart
      And I made this decision
      Because I know that I couldn't live like that
      All you said makes me so sad
      It even almost makes me pray
      I hope that now I'm gone
      Your pain will forever stay...
      Written by -Plienn-

      Confused
      I'm so confused
      I never know what you want from me
      My heart is forever bruised
      I feel like I can never be free

      I still remember when we first met
      You was so special to me
      Now I feel so sad
      I couldn't make you happy

      But I remember all the fun we had
      Every time I think about it, it makes me feel so sad
      I think about your pretty face, laughing about a joke
      But my pain grows more and more, when I think about how my heart broke

      You said you knew how much I felt for you
      But you couldn't chose for me
      Our love couldn't be true
      It seemed if you were happy.

      Now you act so attached
      You dare not to look in my eyes
      I thought we matched
      But I my dream dies

       But I remember all the fun we had
      Every time I think about that, it makes me feel so sad
      I think about your pretty face, laughing about a joke
      But my pain grows more and more, when I think about how my heart broke

      I cry
      I cry
      I cry every single night
      Thinking of the fun we had
      And the silence that drove us apart

      In real life, I act like you don't exist
      But in my dreams we're together
      It's you I can't resist
      But in my dreams that won't matter

      You still make me feel so confused
      Written by Unknown

      I'm sorry
      I'm sorry that I said: I'm sorry
      but I had something about to worry..
      I'm sorry I told you things wich I shouldn't tell
      but I couldn't save this hell

      I hope you're not angry, hope you understand
      I try to hold you close, but I can't
      I wish, wish you were here,
      but you aren't, but in someway you're near

      Sorry for telling you my deepest pain
      but I feld like I was locked in a chain
      Now I hate myself for telling you
      all that matters and all that I knew

      What I told you was a fear of me
      the fear is gone since I'm with you, see
      hope you don't feel teared
      crying, screaming I'm so scared..

      I'm alone, alone listening to the sea
      the sea which I made down on my knee
      I hope you don't mind if I cry
      Cause I still don't understand why I told you , why

      while I'm crying and writing this piece of poetry
      I want you to hold me, I want you to see
      how much I care, how much I love you
      I want you to know I really do
      Written by *Spiritual* **Merel** Why ?
      You said you loved me,
      But you were going to break my heart,
      You said you would love me forever,
      So why are we apart?
      If you really ment forever,
      Than say you will try,
      Cause you once said forever,
      And that made me cry....
      Written by XunCha GuL

      A broken heart
      I really love you,
      but you love someone else.
      When I see you,
      I can't close my eyes.
      I just want you to say how much you care about me.
      But you love someone else.
      I just want to hear "I love you" out of your mouth.
      I hear it in my mind,
      It's just like a sound.
      But it's just a dream,
      Because you love someone else...

      Written by Cupidootje

      Goodbye
      I can’t talk to you anymore
      I need to say goodbye
      I need to walk out that door
      And all I can do is cry
      I thought that we would married
      And that we would start our own family
      That I was the one you needed
      But last night you told me
      You will marry her
      And not me…
      Written by Jasmina

      Goodbye
      You said you’re in love
      With another one
      And now you’re gone
      You’re out off my life
      Not longer by my side
      And all I think is SHIT
      Why happened it
      I’ve always treated you right
      I was always by your side
      I loved you endlessly
      But you wasn’t here with me
      You were with here
      And you told me al those lies
      So right now, I need to say goodbye…
      Written by Jasmina

      My heart broken 4 da second time
       I know there will come a day
      When you will call me
      And when you will say
      That your wife is pregnant
      So you will have a son
      Or a beautiful baby girl
      Who will brings you so much fun
      And your wife
      She’s o so sweet
      You really love her now
      She’s what you need
      And she’s so fine
      And when you will say those words
      You will break my heart
      For the second time
      Written by Jasmina

      Missing
      know what I’ve been missing
      All the time I was missing you
      I know who I should be kissing
      And I know you know that too
      Written by Jasmina

      Left by my homegirl
      I'm left by my homegirl
      She’s now out off my world
      I was always there
      But when my life was a nightmare
      And when I was crying
      She had left me alone
      She left me
      dying
      Written by Jasmina

      For my soulmate
      I hope everything's alright.
      That you can keep up the fight.
      You're gonna get through this bad time.
      In the end everything's gonna be just fine.
      Because you won't have to do this on your own.
      I'm here for you, you'll never be alone.
      Every minute of day and night,
      I want to be your guiding light.
      Remember that I love you with all my heart.
      Soulmate, I never want us to part.
      A big hug from me for you.
      This will cheer you up, whatever you're going through.
      Written by Cowboyke

      Don't
      Don't cry if I go
      Don't be angry if you know
      That I going do something stupid
      Know that I love you
      Feel you not quilted for what I do
      I going just die
      Pleas don't feel quilted
      Written by Schorpioentje

      I hate you
      I hate the way you talk to me
      and the way you cut your hair
      I hate the way you drive my bike
      I hate it when you stare
      I hate your big dump combat boots
      and the way you read my mind
      I hate you so much it make me sick
      it even makes me rime
      I hate the way you always right
      I hate it when you lie
      I hate it when you make me laugh
      even worse you when you make me cry
      I hate it when you not around
      and the fact you didn't call
      but mostly, I hate the way
      I don't hate you
      not even close
      not even a little bit
      not even at all....
      Sent by Anoniempje

      Gone
      gone with the winter
      gone with the spring
      gone for tree season
      gone, but soon back

      I'll see you in summer
      than you'll come back to me
      and we'll be together for eternity
      Written by Cindiiiii

      My heart is crying
      My heart is crying again full of tears.
      Are you gonna leave me again,
      after all these years.
      Please hold my,
      don't walk away.
      Cause I just want you to say,
      that I wanna love you for just one day.
      Written by Moil

      Too late to ask
      Now I see
      I'm too late
      Too late to ask
      Someday
      I will ask it again
      Someday..
      Someday it will happen
      Written by Yael

      Tears
      Thinking about our good times
      Slept with tears in my eyes
      Wondering why

      Why
      would this happen?
      Slept with tears in my eyes
      Thinking about our good times
      and you..
      Written by Yael

      Free
      I wanted to be free
      Free from all kind of thins
      Now I'm sorry and
      Never wanted to be
      Written by Yael

      It hurts so bad
      me girl in the mask
      performing my role accomplishing my task
      I strive for things that are useless and vain
      but deep inside I'm filled with pain

She gives me self-confidence and I wear it with pride
she protects me with shelter, a safe place to hide

wherever I go, she's always so near protecting me at all costs, she has no
fear

Trying to feel what it was, like feelings you can't even remember, holding
someone close, loving him tender

A long time ago, I let her in, and she became part of me like al second
layer of skin.

      And yet so painful but also superior to me
      I'm much more than the girl I thought that I ever could be
      she knows now weakness and offers no surrender, holds her values high to
      any offender
      But what is the price for the armour I wear...

      The vibe the terror and the pain is driving my so bad damn insane, I
      scream scream scream, nobody hears me...
      Love me...
      Written by L.C.

      A crush on you
      But I can't make you love me
      Is it my life or the things I do?
      Can't make you love me
      I'm just a girl with a crush on you
      Sent by Lian

      You and me
      you were there
      I was here
      we were friends

      you're still there
      and I'm still here
      but I don't know what we are
      Written by Svenne

      Aan de liefde van mijn leven
      Maybe I'm weak, maybe I'm strong.
      But what's the meaning when you ain't coming home?
      So I go inside and close this door, and as so many times before.
      I'm so confused and don't know what to do.
      I've tried to hold on to what we've had and go on.
      All the time I've to deny, this pain I feel inside.
      If only I could, I would.
      Beg you to stay, down on my knees, bleeding screaming
      " Please, don't go away..."
      Written by Hope

      I still love you
      When I look back on our days,
      I look and see your face.
      Your tender touch I won't forget.

      I can't Leave It all behind,
      memories are crossing my mind,
      you where my sunshine thought the rain.
      You where my smile thought my pain.
      With you bad things feel tight,
      that's one of a billion reasons why
      I want you by my side.
      Written by Tamara

      Heartbroken
      I wish I was strong like I used to be
      Before hurt and pain weakened me
      Then this wouldn't hurt so much
      All I need is your gentle touch...
      You know who you are and what I mean
      You know that you are... a part of my dream...
      Written by Vergeetmynietje

      Forget-me-not
      She came without a warning
      Quietly, like a thief in the night
      Her heart filled with hope and belief...
      Now she's leaving
      As quietly as she came
      With her hope gone and shattered belief...
      Soon, none will remember
      She ever existed
      "Forget-me-not" will be forgotten...
      Written by Vergeetmynietje

      Why you
      Why now? Not tomorrow
      Why you? Not another
      Can't believe you're gone
      Can't believe you're life done
      Wish to have one more day
      Wish to say
      I love you
      I need you
      Don't go away
      I want you to stay
      I want you here
      Bud now you've got wings to fly
      You my angel in the sky
      Won't forget you
      Won't forget how it was
      Want forget you're still on our side
      Written by Sjanna

      Why didn't you say it
      In a haze I hear you say
      You want to give up everything
      I listen how your words
      Slowly finish into sentences
      They strike me like lightning
      This chillness makes me crazy
      And this feeling is frightening
      But your words keep running
      And I feel my tears burning
      What's been so safe and so secure
      Falls down like a house of cards
      It's like someone else
      Crawls into your heart
      She sneaked in
      To wipe me out
      And destroy my life
      Why didn't you tell me before
      That you didn't love me anymore
      Written by Lili

      It is right
      Boy you are on my mind
      When I wake up in the morning
      You're the first I think about
      In my dreams
      There we meet

      I know we have to stop
      This thing we have started
      I know...
      But I don't want to hear it
      I have this never ending desire
      A desire to hold you once again

Don't know what it's all about
It's got me totally confused

Whenever I look in your eyes
Baby I'm lost

      Never thought it would come to this
      Never thought I would miss you
      Wanting you got me crazy
      And now you're on my mind

      You're walking miles
      In this head of mine
      Trying to figure this out
      I try to understand the situation we're in
      But every time I start
      I lose my mind

      Boy every time I think
      About the thing we've done
      Baby I wonder
      When we'll see each other again

I know it's wrong
Oh yes boy it is

      But baby is it right that I miss you now
      Just for a while...
      Written by Lins

      Someday
      It's hard letting go,
      Of something that was so good,
      For so long
      But maybe it's the only way
      Of keeping the happiness
      Of all those times together
      And maybe someday we'll
      Come to understand
      Why it didn't last forever!
      Sent by Liana

      Why
      if lips are made for kissing,
      why can't I kiss you?
      if arms are made for holding,
      why can't I hold you?
      if a voice is maid of talking,
      why can't I talk to you?
      why can't you see,
      I really need you here with me,
      why can't my life be perfect...
      why don't you want to be with me?
      why do I feel pain, thinking that you're never thinking about me!
      why does love hurt, when it's supposed to feel good?
      why isn't my life,
      not like it should?
      why can't you give me one chance, to prove my love?
      cause I am sure, you are sent from up above!
      knowing that you love me, would make me so happy!
      cause now life is nothing like it's supposed to be,
      days are dark, summer is cold,
      gold is silver, and silver is gold...
      love is hurting, pain is here...
      my heart is breaking, you're not near!
      you're just in my head, in my heart, in my mind...
      and I will never be able to leave you behind!
      Written by Chilly*E (for Quint)

      Last goodbye
      Day after day you make me cry.
      Some days you even make me wanna die.
      It isn't easy to me
      to let you be who you wanna be.
      It's just that I know that you can be sweet.
      Really, you're the only one that I need.
      The only problem is that you never let me see,
      the good boy you can be.
      I just don't get it!
      Is this now how you want it?
      Do you really wanna see me cry?
      Do you really want a last goodbye?
      Sent by Poezewoefke

      Why
      all the things you do,
      make me so crazy about you
      all the things you say,
      make me feel butterflies the hole day.
      I can't help it, even when I'm want help it so bad
      why are you do that?
      why do you make me believe you love me
      another day you hate me
      why are you do this?
      look at me like I am an angel
      look at me like I am slut,
      a fool
      you think you're not so cool
      when you say that you really want
      be with me
      for eternity
      is it true? when it is,
      say it, scream it, kiss me like you do in my dreams, hug me like I love,
      fly with me to the heavens above.
      but is it not the true..
      MAKE ME NEVER AGAIN IN LOVE WITH YOU
      Written by Miss Lamey

      Why
      Why is it so hard 4 you to understand,
      I don't want to be with you anymore,
      You gave me only your hand,
      You didn't give yourself and I demand war,

      You betrayed me and I am falling apart,
      You said you loved me but you hated me,
      You weren't longer my guard,
      Being my enemy is what you wanted to be,

      While I was crying the pain hurt every time again like hell,
      It didn't stop, it was your way of loving someone,
      How come you don't know, tears are what you sell,
      Don't you understand the damage you have done,

      I still love you, I don't know why,
      First I was afraid to stand up and tell you how I felt,
      Now I am afraid, I don't know anymore if I'm still standing high,
      I shiver when I think about how you yelled,

      But I still long for your touch,
      And as I'm imagining,
      I still love you very much,
      From your love I could sing,

      I think it's wrong,
      Desiring a man that once wounded my body and soul,
      But I've been with you 4 so long,
      I don't want to speak, everyday you desperate call,

      I don't understand why, you first desert me,
      And then you only want to be with me, it's the,
      Question why, I am so depressive and still love you,
      It doesn't make sense, Oh why, why, why, why do I still want you?

      Why, why, why, why, why, I keep thinking,
      I realize, in your love I'm sinking.
      Written by Charley

      Can't go to sleep
      At night, I lay cozy in my warm bed,
      With my hands behind my head.
      I have a wish I hope comes true, and I think it might.
      To have you beside me in my bed at night.
      Going to sleep I try.
      I can't and know why.
      Relax and imagine holding you until you are next to me, it does seem.
      I fall asleep knowing I'll be with you in tonight's dream.
      Written by Siva

      Never trust
      Never trust a smiling face
      Because it is not what you think it is

The face can smile
But the soul can cry

      So never trust a smiling face
      Because it is not what you think
      you see.
      Written by Sylvia

      Forever written in my mind
      So many times..
      I see you smile.
      I see you cry.

That sweet smile.
I can not forget that smile.

      Hear you laugh..
      See you smile..
      Hear you cry..

The noises and that smile..
For ever written in my mind, heart and soul..

      I can not forget you.
      I can not stop thinking of you.
      Never.
      Written by Sylvia

      Freak
      I can't see the way she say goodbye..
      I can't see when he laugh.. shy..
      I can't see if they kiss..
      Then I feel what I miss

      Because we've kissed, en he was mine
      And I have to say Im fine
      Cause the boy is my ex...
      and he's having sex..
      with my friend..

      and that kills me
      Written by Lily

      Right or Wrong
      You just walk in my life
      and it hurts so bad
      I don't know if it's wrong or right
      but it makes me feel so sad.
      I wish i could be with you
      hold you real tight.
      Never let go of you
      i know that would be right...
      Written by Debstep

      A lie
      A lie
      If it's wrong,
      You say it's right,
      If something's gone,
      You say it likes to hide,

      If the world changes,
      You act like you're still the same,
      If there are no angels,
      You say that we are not to blame,

      If I murder,
      You say that he just died,
      If hell doesn't exist,
      Then heaven is a lie...
      If we kissed,
      Then I know what you say is a lie.
      Written by Charley

      My salvation
      Around, all around, the storm clouds gather.
      the night falls as if slain by the sun, soulless are we.
      It is a night of darkness, a song of ethereal pain,
      wolves vent their howls. The dark one
      awakes.
      the salvation for which you pray
      flares once, then dies,
      devoured by madness.
      My dread grows as the angry hand of Heaven falls against my naked soul.
      It wounds me, and darkly my
      blood drips
      to the thirsty earth.
      In agony I hang my head
      while Death's shadow looms over me.
      Now alone, my soul falls upon darkened eyes.
      I am dying here, bound to darkness:
      finding my way through this hurtful agony,
      heart so empty and torn.
      Slender beams of moonlight enter
      this darkened place as I kneel,
      always in pain, always lost,
      frozen here,
      waiting.

      this darkness so betrayed,
      a deathly emptiness.
      This is my salvation
      Written by T.A.D.

      Say my name
      "Say my name so often
      please don't say it with a tear
      but say it with such pride and joy,
      for Mum and Dad, I'm near.

      I know the love you gave to me
      More than words can say,
      So I'm going to ask for one more thing
      that you're to do for me each day.

      Take all the love and joy and care,
      So much you gave to me
      Please turn it right 'round in your hearts
      so that it can be,
      A special gift of life and love
      That especially comes from me"
      Written by ~Sweet Elf Girl~

      I'm the black sheap
      Black is in me
      That's why I'm feeling cold
      Only black days a head of me
      And it's all my fault

      Black is the coller I'm feeling
      That's why I need some healing
      Black is all that I see
      But there's nobody who'll set me free

      Black is where I learn to lif with
      That's why sometimes people don't understand it
      Black is where I get my second change
      I can feel it he's taking over with his hands

      It's to late now, I'm his to keep
      That's why 'I'm the black sheap'
      Written by Shorty

      The only way
      I don't need you attention
      Don't need it to stay alive
      All I need right now is Myself
      Me and my f*ucking knife

      So shut up and leave me
      Please, just go away
      I don't need all this bullshit
      Maybe another day

      You can't help me now
      I have to do this on my own
      Go listen to your own shit
      I beg you, just leave me alone!

      Give me a moment for myself
      I need to safe my life
      It will all be okay
      Don't worry about that knife

      Won't kill myself this evening
      Just some scratches which I need
      I know you won't understand
      But on the inside I allready bleed

      You've allready accepted my wounded inside
      So please accept the outside too
      I know it isn't a great solution
      But it's the best thing I can do

      The injury I'll cause
      Won't be as bad as the ones inside
      But you won't see them
      They're much easier to hide

      Someday, I won't need it
      By knowing other ways to express
      But for now I need it
      It's the only way to control this painfull mess!
      Written by A.L.S.

      Pain
      Broken glass
      Keeping my head up
      A cut in my puls
      Staying alive

      I don't feel any pain..
      Again..
      Again.
      I do it once more

      Beautiful pain is inside me now
      I can feel it
      It's streaming very slow
      It's begin to less

      Pain is over..
      Written by *Spiritual* **Merel**

      Forgive me
      I still love you
      I don't know why I hurt you.
      I think to feel so much better than you.
      I'm a CuntPsychoBitch that lives in her own FantasyWorld.
      But please look at me the way you did before.
      I'll never hurt you again.
      Written by *Dramaqueen*

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To Those I Love
If I should ever leave you whom I love to go along the Silent Way,
Grieve not, nor speak of me with tears,
But laugh and talk of me as if I were beside you there.
(I'd come-I'd come, could I but find a way!
But would not tears and grief be barriers?)
And when you hear a song or see a bird I loved,
Please do not let the thought of me be sad...
For I am loving you just as I always have...
You were so good to me!
There are so many things I wanted still to do-
So many things to say to you...
Remember that I did not fear...
It was just leaving you that was so hard to face...
We cannot see Beyond...
But this I know:
I loved you so- 'twas heaven here with you

Frequent flyer

Would you help me pack my bags, I might be leaving
I need some sweet assistance while i'm stealing
Some of your time
I hope that's fine

And i've got photographs of all, you're all i'm needing
Forgiveness if i left you all believing
That i'm the one 'cause i feel like none
And i need something to direct me to it

'Cause i'm a frequent flyer, a notorious liar
But i can't get close enough
I never get close
I can't get close enough

I would love to tell my story from the ending
But the story's getting thin from heavy spending
And i need my man, and i need a fence
And i need someone to protect me from the wrench

I'm a frequent flyer, a notorious liar
But i can't get close enough
I never get close
I can't get close enough to the ending

I can't get close enough
I can't get close enough
To the sun
I can't get close enough

I'm a frequent flyer, a notorious liar
But i can't get close enough
I never get close
I can't get close enough... it seems

*** Thanx a lot to Karen who corrected a mistake ***

I can buy you

A life of sanity and dignity
You know it takes two
And what's the use in being a millionaire
If i can't have you

I wanna buy you a home
I'll pay your friends if you're feeling alone
The pain of losing a guy like you
Is a bigger cost than paying your dues

I can buy you, oh yeah, oh yeah
But i can't make you do what you don't
And i can hire you, oh yeah, oh yeah
But i can't make you love me, i can't make you

You say i'd never go for a little
And i always need more
And you're a thousand-dollar playboy
That i just can't afford

But i guess you got me, oh oh
You got me hanging around for too long
I don't wanna stop it, oh no, oh no
I bet your life that it's with me you belong

And i can buy you, oh yeah, oh yeah
But i can't make you do what you don't
And i can hire you, oh yeah, oh yeah
But i can't make you love me, i can't make you care

So if i can't make you love me
If i can't make you care
What price can take me there in this world
Somebody told me cash is care

I didn't mean to force you, oh no
But i bet a fortune it's with me you belong

And i can buy you, oh yeah, oh yeah
But i can't make you do what you don't
And i can hire you, oh yeah, oh yeah
But i can't make you love me, i can't make you care

I can't take you there anymore...

Angel of sadness

Something's watching over me
There's someone in my house that i can't see
I've asked her many times to leave
She tells me she's not evil

In my hours of confidence
When feeling real and worthy of my friends
When i let go of my defence
She's waiting in a corner

Angel of sadness, leave me alone
Save me some hours to try on my own
When the music is over, the silence is on
You know i will be yours alone
So pick me up and carry me home

Life with her is getting hard
It's like i'm not the driver of my own car
I'm not the holder of my credit card
Oh jesus, make me sober

Misery comes and lovers go
I lose myself and sometimes i don't know
She says i've always told you so
But i'll stay with you forever

Angel of sadness, leave me alone
Save me some hours to try on my own
When the music is over, the silence is on
You know i will be yours alone
So pick me up and carry me home

Angel of sadness, angel of grief
Save me some hours, and please... Can you leave?
When the music is over, the silence is on
I'll be completely on my own
But i'll work it out and find me a home

Such a bad comedown

I danced for a while
And my moves would make you smile
Oh, i loved you then
My dear chemical lover

You veiled me in your haze
Like a puppet in your lace
Amazing disgrace
From your silverspoon substance

You took me away, made monday a saturday
You stained me with love
And left me in dirty laundry
But i left my ground for a minute

Your body in my veins
Your power is what remains
You know i never had
Such a bad, bad comedown

You took me away, made monday a saturday
You stained me with love
And left me in dirty laundry
But i left my ground for a minute

My oh my...
You took pride in my fuck-up

I've been cursed and i've been hailed
I've blown it and i've inhaled
But i never had
Such a bad, bad comedown
Such a bad, bad comedown
Such a bad, bad comedown

Song for the leftovers

The night is on the edge now
Hanging low against the tide
The world is at it's best now
When the loveless ones collide

It's a long night
A beautiful night
And we're the first leftovers
Of the night

I'm thinking about the last times
And the people i had to hurt
I wonder why they couldn't touch
And why i never gave it up

You weren't hard to find
You didn't run and hide
We were the first leftovers
Of the night, of the night

The silence is a burden
When you don't really want to talk
I'm trying really hard now
To set alight my sleepy heart

We made a pretty sight
It seems we've found some pride
In being the first leftovers
Of the night, of the night

And everything is alright now
Everything is alright now
Everything is alright

You're not what i was after
But i'm happy with what i found
To dream of new beginnings
When the end is all around

I think you're alright
You qualify
For being my...
Supernova

It's a gambling life
A lonely strife
But i think we're the best leftovers
Of the night, of the night

And everything is alright now
Oh, everything is alright now
Everything is alright

Walking the cow

Try to remember, but my feelings can't know for sure
Try to reach out, but it's gone
Lucky stars in your eyes
I'm walking the cow

I really don't know how i came here
I really don't know why i'm staying here
Oh oh oh oh...
I am walking the cow

Try to point my finger, but the wind
Keeps blowing me around in circles, in circles
Lucky stars in your eyes
I'm walking the cow

I really don't know what i have to fear
I really don't know what i have to care for
Oh oh oh oh...
I am walking the cow

Lucky stars in your eyes...

Hard as a stone

In the morning and in the evening
When you think you're alone
Too many hours in your apartment
Has made me hard as a stone

I've tried to crack you, i told you you're the one
But you must have thought that i was gone
I told you a lot of lies just to get laid
But your heart is hard as a stone

You are vicious
But i'm a man
I'm gonna do what i can
To remain hard as a stone

That little pigeon, where did you find her?
I had to break her every bone
Eleven hours in your pool
No longer hard as a stone

She was delicious
Now i'm the star
If you wanna be what you are
You've got to be hard as a stone

You are mean
But i'm a man
It's not exactly what i planned
But it seems i'm hard as a stone

Algebra

Why can't you just forget about algebra?
It's all about you now
And all your talk of logic and formula
Could never help you now, not anymore

'Cause you were always on the run
From the darkness in your heart
So you wear it on the outside
Of your chest

I have taken the liberty
To tell your ghost to go
Bribing them with sunlight and sympathy
They promised not to show for a while

'Cause you were always the little boy
Who couldn't keep it to yourself
So your heart is on the outside
Of your chest

At the speed of light
You moved inside my home
Nothing is alright
If you are still alone

And your heart
Is greater than
The sum of you
And everyone

But still you're always on the run
From the poison in your lungs
And your heart is on the outside
Of your chest

Silent night

Baby brown, i think i need you now
To put me down and help me lift me up
Your shaking bones in my telephone
No good for anyone

Baby brown, so you think you know me now?
You tell me how and show me everything
Your wandering mind and your restless kind
I want you here to make some sound

Oh, silent night
Oh, holy night

Baby brown, now you're more than you mean to be
You're mean to me, you take away from me
My shaking bones in your telephone
Don't you hear that sound?

Oh, silent night
Oh, holy night
Oh, silent night
Oh, there's a hole in the night

Same old song

Here's my prayer, i'm getting nowhere
I'm stepping up the stairs, but falling behind, oh...
I'm a one-man show that nobody knows
My body sure knows, i'm wondering why, oh...

I can't go on singing this song
That the angels will not hear
The world is a hole from all that i stole
But there is still a little love in here

Few things will last
I did it too fast, but i'm learning to cry
Don't be a stepping stone
Get it all out, deliver it

Here's my weep, i'm digging too deep
I do believe in lies, i've got everything to hide, oh...
I'm young, i'm old, i do what i'm told
Cut open, unfold, but there's nothing inside, oh...

I can't go on singing this song
That the angels will not hear
The world is a hole from all that i stole
But there is still a little love in here

Few things will last
I did it too fast, but i'm learning to cry
Hey child, you dance too loud
Here is your limit

No, i can't go on singing this song
That the angels will not hear
The world is a hole from all that i stole
But there is so much love in here

Few things will last
I did it too fast, but i'm learning to cry
Don't be a stepping stone
Get it all out, deliver it

Here's my plead, my never-ending repeat
I'm a circular cry-baby with no-one to trust
I'm restless and mad and anciently sad
If someone wants to kill me, go ahead, but make it fast

Oddness of the lord

Come on baby sing
Of the oddness of the lord
It's about time we sang
Of the strange ways of the lord
The oddness of the lord
The oddness of the lord

Come on baby sing
Of the oddness of the lord
The strange ways of the lord
The sacred and the cursed
It's never getting better, no no no
It's only getting worse

Come on people sing
Of the oddness of the lord
Everybody sing
Of the strange ways of the lord
The oddness of the lord
The sacred and the cursed

It's never getting better
No no no
It's only getting worse
It's never getting better, no no no
No no

Rock n roll ghost

Well, you know and you go
When i'm alone i have no cause
To think about the shit we used to know
Made of snow

Well you came, and you stayed
No-one here to raise a toast
Be my guest and i will be your host
To a rock'n'roll ghost, a rock'n'roll ghost

Well, you said she's better off dead
You think that i might have heard a word
But i was much too young, and much too cool for words
Look at me now

No-one here to raise a toast
Take me by the hand, man... Raise a toast
Or the rock'n'roll ghost
To a rock'n'roll ghost

We don't know until we're gone
There's no one here to raise a toast
I look into the mirror and i see
The rock'n'roll ghost, my rock'n roll ghost

Bluest eyes in texas

The lonesome texas sun was setting low
And in the rearview-mirror i watched it go
I can still see the wind in her golden hair
I close my eyes - for a moment i'm still there

The bluest eyes in texas are haunting me tonight
Like the stars that fill the midnight sky, her memory fills my mind
Where did i go wrong? Did i wait too long? Or can i make it right?
The bluest eyes in texas are haunting me tonight

Another town, another hotel room
Another dream that ended way too soon
Left me lonely way before the dawn
Searching for the strength to carry on

For every heart you break
You pay the price
But i can't forget the tears
In her blue eyes

The bluest eyes in texas are haunting me tonight
The bluest eyes, the bluest eyes
Are haunting me
The bluest eyes... Tonight

Elephant

I caught you smiling with pointed teeth
What once was beautiful has turned bitter and cheap
So now there's nothing i can do for you
But leave your roses out to die

I misbehaved
I'm in your way
I'm in your way
Like an elephant

Gentle smiling with pointed teeth
Now there's a war between my high hopes and me
So this is how you put an end to things?
By cutting throats with a smile?

I misbehaved
I'm in your way
In your way
Like an elephant

But in the corner of my mind
A little angel saying
Don't waste your love
You love too much

Non album tracks

Deceased

( Soundtrack of "randall and hopkirk" )

I'm not here to harm you
So let me disarm you, you'll see what i mean
I'm yours for you already know me
Stay with me and show me the way to my dreams

Together we can live a life we know is real
We move silently through my room and make me feel
That love can be a place we never have to leave
Be strong, stay with me, never disappear

Deep in my heart i see clearly
We should be revealing our secrets today
Please, don't just stay there, i'm waiting
For the plans you've been making to take me away

Together we can live a life we know is real
We move silently through my room and make me feel
That love can be a place we never have to leave
Be strong, stay with me, never disappear

Charlie charlie

( I can buy you EP )

I met a boy called charlie charlie
On the fourth of september last year
He was twenty-one, and once a teenage star
So sweet in the way he appeared, in the way he appeared

Charlie charlie
He was a trip into the wild and the free
Got high on drinks and being rock'n'roll dreams
We shared the days and nights 'til one morning he showed me

I fell in love with charlie charlie
It felt like the right thing to do
With his careless charm and his jaded eyes
I know you would have fallen too, you would have fallen too

Charlie charlie
He was a trip into the wild and the free
Got high on drinks and being rock'n'roll dreams
We shared the days and nights 'til one morning he showed me

Charlie charlie
Went for an errand at the end of the street
He stole my heart, but if you happen to meet
You tell him i don't want the money that he owes me

I just want to know what went through him
'Cause i could never know
Even though i thought i knew him
Charlie charlie, what are you doing to me?

Charlie charlie
He's got my credit card and hasn't been seen
He stole my heart, but if you happen to meet
You tell him i don't want the money - no, i just want him

My misery is a mystery

( Song for the leftovers EP )

Oh, my misery is a mystery
She's my mistress when she's with me
And i miss her when she's history
Oh, my misery is a mystery

Oh, mysterious delirious
Why is happiness so furious?
And it is tiring to be curious
My euphoria is dangerous

Oh, how glorious to sleep
In between our raging days
It's the sweetest relief

Holy moses, life is roses
Just be vary of the process
Give it water in small doses
And cut it down when it's ferocious

Oh, my misery is a mystery
She's my mistress when she's with me
And i miss her when she's history
Oh, my misery is a mystery

Train Of Salvation

I walked on every road now
I followed the signs
I'm traveling on my own now
No peace of mind
I have a bad devastation
I try and I try
My final departure is here
I'm leaving endless black tunnels
For a wide open field
I'm blank and I'm out of here
I'm waiting for a train of salvation
To be bleeding with a glow into my head
To know my very needs and my station
And to try a fairytale revolution
My charm collects a spider
Eternal relief
I know there is a spider engine of peace
To change my desperate moment
In the timetable room
And take me to the end of the line
I got a no return ticket
To the station of saint
I'm broke, but my ride divine
I'm waiting for a train of salvation
To be bleeding with a glow into my head
To know my very needs and my station
And to try a fairytale revolution
I have a bad devastation
Being reason or rhythm
But it seems that I'm finally on time
Because the platform is shaking
The concrete is cracking
I'm leaving it all behind
I'm waiting for a train of salvation
To be bleeding with a glow into my head
To know my very needs and my station
And to try a fairytale revolutio